I haven't posted in a loooong while. I've been married a little over a year to a man that I thought was a completely different person. I have fixed his teeth, his back. Paid his bills, only to be told for the first 9 months of our marriage that we should divorce. Then the I'm sorry it won't happen again has graduated to " get out of my life" oh I don't mean that either. I'm exhausted. I've endured his parents and his fathers mal treatment of my kids. They don't want to be here. I've bought new furniture, air conditioning units, bent over backwards for what!!!!!???? I told my husband he needs to get a job, because oh yes I allowed him to quit his old one a year ago because he was getting written up all the time, now I know why. His attitude sucks ass. He has big issues with women and can't stand that he isn't smarter or makes more money. He has no formal education and I given him the opportunity to go to college and he won't get out of his own way to do so. His son is a delinquent and got kicked out of public school for the second time since I met him 3 years ago. His daughter had a baby 3 months ago and is a mess. Their mother died from years of alcohol and drug abuse this year in my birthday. They have been awful to me, all the while expecting me to just give give give. Nope. Not any more. My husband thinks that I should give my kids' child support to help his kid and I said no way. I told him he needed to go to the social security office and see about getting his kid survivor benefits, if it's even possible since his mother rarely worked. I have made my kids tow the line, I have one who is married with a college degree, second baby it's. One in college, high school senior with a 4.5 gpa, a freshman in honors and a sixth grater in honors/stem. My son has learning issues and he's made great strides to get better grades.
Yesterday was my straw that broke my back. I have pushed my kids to get jobs, they have. Anytime they need to use my car or something they pay for it. They get child support but, still pay out of their pockets for it. My husband went off on me yesterday because I made the comment in a fun and lighthearted manner that if his son was going to be getting taken to places to work that he could pay his dad gas money. Seems only fair. So I got the silent treatment followed by the nasty yelling and then accused of being mean to his son. But then he said all of this started because I didn't let him finish his story about the job his son had been asked to go. That this family friend was gonna pick him up and drop him off. I'm calling bullshit on all of this, it pissed off his son because I'm making him pay for his way and he can't put all his money in his toys. It's happened over and over and over. Then his "I'm sorry" is just supposed to erase this.
I feel like I am living with a narcissist jerk who is out for number one. His mouth and spouting divorce and get out of my life has eroded and already weak foundation. I'm trying.. god knows, but what the hell dude? 40 years old and you treat people like crap. Over it