I don’t think I can do this.
Which is a ridiculous thing to say after being married 5 years and together for 8. The biggest problem I never realized I would have when I married my husband is the impact SD's BM and family would have on me raising my child. I also didn't expect a damn pandemic in the midst of my daughter's early childhood. Everything was so manageable and easy before I had my own daughter and now I can't seem to deal with any of it.
When I was pregnant with DD, BM sent SD home to us with fifths disease. She knew she had it, all her kids had it and SD was the last one to contract it. It turned me into a high risk pregnancy, I missed out on saying goodbye to my dying grandmother, I worried every week until my daughter was born that it would impact her in someway. BM argued that it wasn't a big deal based on SD's pediatrician at the urgent care, and all my doctors were idiots. That was my first red flag but it was a little too late to be neurotic.
We now live in a pandemic. My husband works for one of the companies that made the leading vaccine for covid. SD is 12 and eligible, yet BM is refusing to vax her because her grand babies might have 5 arms. BM also decided to host a party at an indoor restaurant where SD shared a fish bowl of diabetes with 6 kids sucking out of straws, and thinks this is fine. DD is 3 and I have to constantly worry about this woman's judgement and decisions, and what SD brings back to our home. DH will take his daughter at whatever cost, but I can't stand the idea of losing my little lady to BM's bad decisions. School started again for SD and I'm a nervous wreck.
Is anyone else in this world of covid hell coparenting? What's working for everyone?