Headed for divorce
After my last entry we reconciled and have tried to patch things up which meant me disengaging from the sds. We have been to counselling and he talks a good talk but it’s obvious I’m way down the list. After Xmas I got a call from the hospital major surgery I had been waiting for was to be scheduled. I am now a week post op and home. He told me he was very disappointed his girls had not even been bothered how concerned he was or about how I was ( me - well I was are u so surprised I don’t exist to them unless I’m buying stuff).
I’m now realising my dh doesn’t have room for me in terms of caring and empathy as that’s all used up. The osd has ramped up the past week in her efforts for daddy attention bearing in mind she’s 26. I was sent home 5 days after op with specific instructions to rest etc ( hysterectomy ). The op didn’t go as planned and I can’t lift etc for 6 weeks. Dh had to work 2 days stuff he couldn’t change then he took 2 days working from home. Osd rang last night about going out for lunch today knowing he’d took the time off to “ look after me”: we had a row. He went as when I pointed this out to him he said “ your just trying to get me to cut all contact”. No I want to be put first and I can hardly walk due to pain etc.I had to sort myself out all day no help etc he didn’t even bring me a drink. He went off for lunch, I can’t even bring myself to speak to him. He made me dinner and left it on the side for me while he sat at the table. Last night he basically said the situation was all my own fault I should ignore their behaviour etc. after dinner I needed something from the store I asked if he’d go it’s not far he looked at me so I said ok don’t want to put u out I will go myself - he said fine go yourself followed by your just being a bitch now??? I got to the store and back and then he screamed at me I told you I’d go- erm no you didn’t you called me a bitch? Why are u so angry with me? He didn’t reply.
I’m so emotional right now. Please don’t say hurtful things to me I can’t take it. I’m in pain , upset and thinking seriously about divorce. I feel invisible and lonely