Anyone else disengage and feel angry?
So you all know I recently disengaged after years of doing everything for my two SD and never appreciated. Ok this will sound weird but they don’t even know I have disengaged because they haven’t bothered to contact me. In most ways I’m still at peace. But I’m also angry and it’s a little more than anger. I also feel a rage inside of me that’s not like me at all. I’m so hurt and I think I have always just been the pushover and the “kind one” that this new feeling has entered me. I wish I could explain it more. I don’t like this aspect in myself. I feel depressed and angry. Is this normal when you first disengage? I feel hatred and I’m beyond sad. I don’t have kids of my own which I highly regret. I do not want to fix things with them but I think I feel on edge all of the time wondering if my husband is going to see them soon.