After Serious Thought on Matters as they are I Called H and Cancelled Lunch Monday
Told him that I just could not meet him if he was still under any delusion that things could ever change between his Twit and me.
That, as he kept bringing her up and expects me to believe that SHE really wants things to be good between us, we are miles apart in any reconcilliation and that I saw no point in continuing, at this point, by having lunch with him.
I wished him a Happy New Year and told him I still loved him, but I couldn't continue playing the Twit game any more. I didd say that I would arrange for him to meet with me & the counselor at my next appointment next week, gave him the time and told him not to be late.
That it is up to him now if he wants to spend the rest of his life with me, peacefully and quietly, or continue his current drama with his Twit because she is never, ever going to change. I actually told him that I believe the only reason she said what she did is that she doesn't want to have to be the one taking care of him in his old age. That I always thought he and I would take care of each other as long as we could, independently and with outside help. We talked about that when we moved down here. H is older so, since women live longer, I know that after he is gone and I am feable, DD will be there to take care of me and she will do it because she wants to, not because she has to. Thre is a big difference in just those two words.
Going to be a long New Years Eve but hopefully a bright shiny 2019.
Oh, I told him if he got his act together and really wanted to become a couple again to give me a call BUT Twit will have to be gone for good. He should think long and hard about it.
I am exhausted. THAT was very hard to do. But I am finished with Twit games and drama. I cried and sobbed, but have faced that the end of this, one way or the other, is coming to a head.