Husband has 50/50 - FML
So my husband has 50/50 and travels for work a lot so for a while he was only having the kids one week a month. He has 4 kids (three girls 16, 10, 9, one boy 12). He recently started back at 50/50 and it’s summer break. I am going f*cking insane. I work from home and am constantly being bothered by his kids who are lazy and just want to eat all day and play videos games and watch tv. Their mother does not want them more than 50/50 even though she is getting “child support” for her EQUAL amount of time w them. She does not work. She married her best friend’s husband and put the kids in this awful situation to begin with and I feel like I’m suffering for her bad choices. I met my husband a year after his divorce and the kids seemed to be a bit of a handful but it wasn’t anything I felt I couldn’t Marry him because of. Now, it’s terrible because of the way their stepdad intervenes in co-parenting and their mom is jealous of me because I am 10 years younger and she looks like white trash - not conceited but it’s the only reason she would hate me.
Anyway, we’ve been together for over 3 years (married for 1) and I’m at my wits end. I find myself hoping he loses custody of them. I yell at him about their behavior and I’m constantly telling him to give up his 50/50 rights. Well, their mother is planning on moving 50 miles away and there’s no way my husband can drive to and from their new school everyday. He wants to fight her on it but I’m secretly hoping she wins so we won’t have to have the kids as much. I feel so guilty for it but I feel that it will save our marriage. I also would like kids of my own and as long as he has 50/50 there’s no way that will ever happen. Someone please make me feel better about this lol