What have you given up?
Am I the only one who has given up my personal wants for DH and SK?
Ten years together, when we 1st started out we both wanted a family together(our own kids). Now we are here 10 years later and all I have are his used SD's. (harsh?). After having so much drama, and full time kid it just didn't happen in the beginning. Now we are both in our 30's, work full time, and have a new house (more bills, more responsibilities, more grownup stuff)
We just got in an argument over it. I was mad at him when I woke up and I guess was just picking a fight (it's been a long long time since I had one of these grumpy days)
Me: "you gave two women you don't care about one thing I have always wanted. To be a mom"
DH: "not by my choice, my life is half over I really don't feel like starting over with a new baby. If you don't like it leave"
Me: "%$##($$#%$^%" well not really cussing just got mad an ignored him. Any time we fight thats his go to if you dont like so and so leave. But honestly we are in love just one of those crappy couple things people do.
OK I say all the time I don't want kids, but is that true or am I saying it because I love DH to much to leave over this. I feel as if he has his own family, he has kids, I don't... He has no clue how bad that sucks. How it feels some times to sit on the outside looking in to what I want (or think I want)...
I honestly at this point do not know if I still want kids or if I am just in a bad mood today. It is more the fact that its what he says goes, which I get with having kids. If two people can't agree on something that important then its most likely not the right time or person to have a child with. I know if I don't like it leave, but he really is my soul mate. Hes my other half, my best friend.
Its just one large major huge gigantic thing that we disagree on and did i say I am in a bad mood yet. Oh and he is on the way home with SD would it be awful to lock myself in the bedroom and ignore the world tonight?
Has any one else had this problem or something close.