Time to do what I want
After my last post describing the argument hubby and I had iv had a really shit day. I’m exhausted and have always noticed I get “drained” around hubby. I love him and have always made a million sacrifices and have done everything I could to support him and his son however possible. But iv always considered getting out. We have a child together so I’ll always be somewhat stuck to him.
Today I listed a work wanted add for my new profession. And Instead of staying in the region iv stated I’ll accept offers nation wide. I have never wanted to live here. I have only stayed because hubby couldn’t leave his son (12). But now I’m spreading my wings. If hubby wants to come he can. If he wants to continue being a douche he can stay behind. He cannot expect me to keep making sacrifices for his life. He cannot accuse me of being a selfish not caring stepmum after all I have done and been through for him. I don’t have an issue with SS. He’s a typical pre teen prick that’s torn between parents so he can misbehave but he’s actually an alright kid underneath. We have our own inside joke that when his mum and dad text we say “let the hunger games begin” hahaha, he knows they fight constantly (mum tells him whenever “dad is mean to her”) and it makes it less serious for the child. I’m done here. I’m done with being the bad guy, having shit thrown in my face and just being unhappy. Iv always worries about everyone else and it’s now time to do shit for myself and make a great life for our son. I haven’t told hubby I’m looking at work nationwide but he will realise when I have to go away for the weekend for a job interview. If he appreciated me more and had more respect it wouldn’t have come to this.