Not speaking with Ex. Missing SD13. BD has days to live.
My ex asked for a break April 1st. I moved out and back into my existing vacation condo an hour away. I gave her some space and then was informed she wanted to break up a week or so later. She was dating multiple people by mid April.
We were together for 2 years. She had weekend custody of SD13 up until last year when BD's cancer really started to seriously affect his ability to parent. I was already doing all the things a SP does. Pickups, dropoffs, taking her shopping for clothes, pay for meals, clean cuts, build forts, science projects, you name it. The BD and I were fond of each other. I brought him food, cut his grass - we were friends. I was first SP that he approved of for his daughter.
I tried to work things out with the ex up until 30 days ago. Nope just wants friendship. She was also reluctant to work out any arrangement that included time with me and the SD. That's when I went no contact. The SD13 still texts and we chat.
The ex's family told me last week BD got a morphine pump installed and has days to live. She has since 'quit' dating temporarily so says her FB page.
My heart is breaking for the SD. I feel like I spent 2 years with the BD's death looming over us like a dark cloud. Now I can't be there for her.
Not even sure whether to go to the funeral when it inevitably comes.
Do I go? Do I reach out the neurotic ex (possible Narcissist and Codependent)? Do I just let this whole things fade away?
Started seeing a shrink a couple weeks ago. Have been depressed and even suicidal at times. Starting to finally get my emotions under control from the No Contact.