This is the last entry in my blog, I need all the help and suggestions, I can get
:sick: So we took my stepson to DCFS and of course they found nothing as I had thought. Although the nurse their said that 85% of the time they don't find any signs of sexual abuse, and that often times the kids won't talk about the abuse for months or even years. And like we thought, my SS f'd up mother came unglued that we had taken him in before notifying the her. She thought that we should have taken him to the family doctor first. What a complete B! She also wrote a Freudian slip in her as always well crafted emails saying, "you should have written me to get my side of the story". Thus proving our suspicion that she knew what had happened. What kind of other side can there be to abuse.
Well and my SS has started the sexual stuff already. When we were going home today, from picking him up he I sat in the back with my son, because I don't want him anywhere near him. he turned around three times and I swear that one of those times he was looking straight up my baby boys shorts. Of course to see only his diaper, but still. I questioned if I was seeing things, but then when we came home, he was talking with me and staring directly at my breasts, not glancing mind you but staring. Disgusting, seeing that I am like his mother. I have been married to his Dad for three and a half years, he is well over the phase of I have a crush on my Fathers new wife.
When his Dad asked him about it, he sheepishly fessed up. Nasty little smacker, I know that I shouldn't feel this way but I am scared to death of my little boy being with this child. I can't help my SS because we found nothing, and his mother who has full medical won't allow it. I have asked my husband to move away but he has informed me that unless things get really really bad, he will not leave my SS. How in Gods name am I going to live like this? I am being held hostage in my own home by my spouse and SS. And my husband doesn't believe that this boy is a threat. I beg to differ, my gut tells me he is a real threat, and will be a real real threat to all of us, especially my little man. Any ideas on how I can curtail this with my SS. Do I threaten him with bodily harm if he comes near my son! Of which, I would not act on but it would be just a threat! Is this normal for a ten year old boy to be looking longingly at his SM breasts? How do I survive, and stay sane living in such hell. How do I put the fear of God in my child, so that he knows to stay completely away from this child? And this last question of which many will say I am crazy, but should I have another child? We were planning on having another child actually two before all of this happened, but I had since changed my mind. But I started thinking that my birth son needs to have a sibling that is his blood, so he won't want to go towards his SS in any way, and also because I want another child. Amy thoughts or suggestions will be more than appreciated, or at this point friend request for any of you who would like to be individual sounding boards and advice givers.