Went from having sex 2-3 times a day to 2-3 times a week. Im finding myself withdrawing from my marriage..I am turning into a bitter stepmom and wife! I have talked until I just cant talk to dh about it anymore. Its getting to the point that I cant stand a conversation with him.
Its been well over a 1 1/2 years Ive been dealing with the ex and Im tired. Ive talked to him about it all from skids to ex to how he deals with my own kids. He doesnt check his own kids stuff but is all over mine.
Recently hes been so proud because he says things are getting better? They are not getting better ive just been working when skids are here. So am I the problem? My dd said Im a great mom and she is sick of the way skids act, she wants to move to grandmothers house when shes 14. She is abandoning our house when skids are coming, from arranging sleep outs to begging my sisters.
For a while I thought the ex calmed down only to find out hes just been going along with everything she says and not telling me. Lately all I can think about is the damage shes caused and continues to cause and the way she drags me into everything. Anytime skids have a bad day etc.
Sex doesnt feel intimate anymore and Id rather just take care of it myself. Its not that I dont want it or I dont want him..I do, but I cant connect and it feels empty. Im hoping it will pass.
I am at the end of my rope and I dont want to leave because he is definitely the love of my life!! But I cant control the ex and she will never stop!! At one ppoint everything with skids was ok then it went to not great to bad to worse to horrible. Its gotten to the point that just knowing theyre coming makes me sick..im literally feeling sick.
I have never been mean to skids but I do not let them treat me like crap..which after the talks they have with their mother is their main goal while in my house. Im just done! I dont even want them here anymore. I feel like im this horrible person for feeling like this.