Just when I think I can't feel more guilty - I do!
I have a horrible question(s) to ask.
Have any of you ever considered just saying it is me or them? I really can't take the endless drama these kids and their mother have brought into my life. It has had a substantial impact on my physical and mental health, and I am near a total breakdown or a stroke or something. I CANNOT live like this anymore. I feel like I either get to live this hell or leave my husband and move on alone and with a broken heart, as we are absolutely perfect together. My mom is afraid that I'm going to end up dead from this stress or from his ex harming me as she is crazy. She is an actual diagnosed by a medical professional crazy ass woman! She is BP and suffers from borderline personality disorder.
My husband and his ex are in this awful custody dispute. She's unwilling to negotiate at all and still expects full CS even with a 50/50 schedule. We are eventually going to run out of ways to pay an attorney. I am full of resentment. We are broke and in debt. I can't do this anymore, but I also can't NOT do it anymore if that makes sense. I don't think I have ever felt so hopeless in all of my life.
What do you do when you are stuck like this?