Childless Step mom dealing with hard issues
I have been with my husband since my stepdaughter was 5 months old. She will be turning 7 soon. She has always known life with her father and I together. Recently my husband expressed he no longer wanted anymore children even though he knew my desire to have a child. Told me for years he would be ready eventually. Broke my heart when he finally admitted he already had the child he wants and doesnt want any more even though my stepdaughter asks me daily when I will give her a sibling. Yesterday she came home from school excited to show me a picture she drew. The picture was Mommy, Daddy, her and a baby all holding hands. I asked "Is this your mommy and daddy?" Her: Yes. Me: Why did you draw Mommy and daddy holding hands with you and another baby?" Her: Because that is what I want."
I choked back the tears, smiled and told her it was a lovely picture and placed it back in her back pack as she wanted to bring it to her mother.
I was so taken by surprise since she has only known life with her father and I together as her bio mom and da split when she was 2 months old. It also stung harder after just last week my husband telling me he will not have a child with me and I expressed I felt like I didn't have a family to belong to even though we have been a "family" for almost 7 years.
My question is, am I being overly emotional because of the recent events or do I have valid feelings?
I cant express enough how step parenting is not for the weak. I have struggled with it the most recently even after all these years. Looking for some support.