“Holidays” still suck.
Haven't been here a while. Took a break and tried to change my attitude. Things were going okay for a while. Then I realised that I'm just pretending to be okay. All it took to remember how much I hate this lifestyle is a holiday. 2 weeks at the beach. DH hasn't even discussed having the kids until pick up. He also didn't discuss with me. When they all rocked up at the beach house I asked and he said "I told her (BM) we will have them the whole time" I tried to stay positive, I thought to myself "they are another year older, and me and DH haven't been fighting, we have bio now, maybe it will be different. It isn't. The rude awakening!
Skids still demand daddy spends every second with them and he obeys.
We have adult friends over and instead of spending some time relaxing over a few drinks, he's laying in the kids bed watching movies until 11pm because "they asked me to" at one point our friends even asked me if he was ever going to join us. How rude!
All day long, all night long, he is at skids beck and call. One day I asked "can you just get the kids to bed and spend some time with me tonight" one of the little shits looks up and says "why don't you just go away and also dad will just come with us and hangout in our bed anyway" he didn't even correct the little shits. And again he's in there that night!
meanwhile because he's been so sidetracked with them. I've been single parenting bio, everyday he takes the car and off they go as a trio. Today I said I'd had enough, I want to go home and I'm sick and tired of the skids running the show, and demanding all of his time. DH got upset of course and told me in some stupid remark "well I'll help you pack your bags when we get home then" all because so pointed out that I was sick and tired of coming last, and not just me, our baby who gets no time too. I'm sick of this bullshit deal and I'm sick of playing nice.