Why does this have to be so hard?
I am just reading some of the new posts on here and it seems like most SMs are in agreement that your marriage should be the #1 priority. DH and I actually have had many fights over this issue because he feels kids are #1 priority.
SD is 5 and pretty much runs the house. DH and I have great weeks together, then as soon as SD gets back (we have her every other week) it’s OVER until she is gone again. The entire week she is here is all about what she wants to do, when she wants to do it (major guilty parenting going on). I feel like my life is pretty much being put on hold every other week since I really can’t do anything I want to do when she is there (I can go out and do my own things, which I do, but I mean things I want to do with my DH).
I’m 27 and I have no kids and sometimes I just feel like I should not be doing this. It’s so much drama and so much bs and so much of never being put first and I really feel like DH does not appreciate it at all. I want to have my own kids and DH and I have been talking about it (I posted about that on here last week), but for every moment I am excited and happy about it, there’s a moment where I wonder what the heck I am doing.
DH and I have been together 3 years so I don’t feel like giving it time is going to change anything, and me not having kids is not an option. So basically my choices are to deal with the situation and have my own babies or to decide I don’t want to be part of this stepfamily mess and find a childless man to start my own family with. Why does this have to be so hard?