I don't even know what to say
but i have to keep talking or i will go crazy. I came to the realization today that I simply cannot stay in this relationship. Three is a crowd in any relationship and it is 10 times worse when the third one is a meddling, spoiled, 17 year old bitch brat. I have tried to tell myself it is not her fault...she is a kid but dammit, she is a MASTER at manipulation and lies. Shes knows that no matter what she does to disrespect me, her daddy-o will take her side. I am so tired of being "ganged up" on. Although i am totally disgusted with his total lack of discipline and the fact that he treats her like a wife and not a daughter I am more concerned with my own health at this point. No sleep, the endless headaches, constant stress and dealing with her competing with me. SHe is now allowed to even keep me awake at night because she wants to. She is up til all hours, usually on the computer, until she wants to mess with me and piss me off, then she starts by being noisy, loud tv, loud music, etc. (BF works nights). She has a tv in her room, but OMG, she cannot watch in there !! there is no cable !!! i guess its more important that she have cable, than me get sleep and get up early to go to work every damn day. I have tried to talk to him...she is many different people. One when he is around (goody two shoes) and another when he is out of sight. She knows exactly what she is doing and by allowing her to do it, it is escalating on a daily basis. I don't dare talk to her about it outside his presence, because i do not trust her. She twists everything and then he is mad at ME> I am not allowed to confront her on any dam thing. She gets to walk all over me and she is the protected species. I know counseling would be a wonderful outlet for us, but BF is perfect and does no wrong. What the hell does he need a therapist for?
Today i have been in tears reading some of the posts here because i see that there just is no hope of this ever getting better, mostly because he cannot see it. I feel like Stever, that if i leave she "wins" and it makes me sick to think I have been sucked into a tug of war. This is no relationship, its a war zone and I am not willing to do it anymore. I am stuck for several months until i can save money and relocate and i am a nervous wreck everyday wondering how i am going to "fake it" for that long. I am treated like the daughter and "she" is treated like his wife. It is so twisted and sick i am embarassed to even say it. I come from a mental health background and know all the signs and symptoms of dysfunction and here i am living it !! I try to ask myself what kind of advice i would offer someone who came to me with these issues...and it would be to cut bait and run !!! But it is not that easy to do.
Anyway, I'm sure i am rambling and repeating myself but sometimes ya just need to get it out. Its like toxic poison and the body needs to expel it. Thanks everyone