Dreading the every other weekend still
Hi its been 1.5 years and i still freaking hate , dispise , hate did i say hate lol every other weekend. I feel like im putting my life on hold for 2 kids that i really really dont like, I know its just everyother weekend but to me that alot. Thats 2 weekends of my life gone a month. Im 45 and was ready to relex and do things i want when i want as my son is 24 and i have done all of this before. Im tired, Im very close to calling it quits it just sucks as i do truly love him. I talk to people and they say .. hold on there they will get older ( there 7 and 14 boys ) hold on for how long 10 years ? i will be 55 then... i really didnt want kids in my life and im getting very depressed at this point.
I know you guys dont know me or us.. we really do have the perfect thing going , other then these 2 kids. I start stressing out a week before they come and the day i know there coming i actully cry on my way home . I am just preety misriable at this point of my life.