Happier when he’s a work.
I didn't know how to title this so I just put this. I'm browsing the forum and just laying in bed and I'm pretty depressed today. I called my therapist today to find out if she's seeing patients again as I cant cope anymore and I don't want to keep complaining to my friends. BM recently moved and she moved 5 min away from us. Since she had H has taken on more responsibility, when he's not at work he's taking care of SD. I take care of our children. She's been here every single weekend but the custody arrangement is supposed to be every other weekend. I have not complained about this as it's his daughter and I really don't have a leg to stand on but my issue is him. He's mean to our children and has no respect for me. My son is autistic and he's constantly yelling at him and saying what a mistake he was. 2 weeks ago my SD was yelling at my son for something he was doing. I was in the other room and heard her yelling at him that I went in there took him out of the room and told her she should not be disciplining my child that she should call one of us if there is an issue. H started yelling at me told me I was a horrible person and demanded I apologize other wise he was leaving. H tells me at least twice a month that he regrets having a second family. We have 2 together. Which was a mistake but it happened. Yesterday I left I just didn't want to be around them so I went to see some friends. I got home and he was in a pissy mood because he had to take care of the kids all day. I'm not quite understanding this as these are all HIS children and he should be able to handle it. But all he does in complain about how bad our kids are and what an angel SD is. I just don't want to be around them anymore. I have been picking up after SD this entire weekend and I am treated with no respect. He tells me nothing until last min. Oh I have to take SD here oh she's staying another night. He has no respect for me. He hates me for a lot of reasons and these are things I can't change. I could leave and I've tried but it's too hard on my own and I have no family support. It's like he knows I can't go anywhere and he takes advantage it. I actually had a nightmare 3 nights ago that he took the kids from me and got remarried. I have such mistrust for this man that he actually scares me. Any advice will help or at least some understanding. I'm just very unhappy.