I really need some support and kind words.
First I just want to say happy Thanksgiving everyone and I hope that you guys are better having a better time than me. I hired a lawyer and file for divorce the last thing I wanted to do was get a divorce but I don’t have a choice anymore I posted a lot of stuff regarding stuff wife on here but there were things I left out. In my home in my Basement there are 25 reptiles I don’t like them they make my basement smell and it’s just not the right time to be hoarding reptiles in my basement. My husband loves them so much says that they are his core and they are the most important thing in his life. This man has three children. I’ve begged them for years to stop getting so many I told him that of having so many was something that he wanted to do to please wait until the kids got older he told me that he was sick of compromising for anyone. Ever since my husband and I got together not only has this been an issue but of course his ex-wife he carried around such guilt that everything and anything she wanted he gave to her. Not only did he jump for her but he expected me to as well. I was the free babysitter for years after I had two children of my own I could no longer do this for years I tried and I tried and it got me nowhere everything I did was never good enough and after five years I gave up I stopped being a stepmother I could no longer do it it was too stressful every little thing that I did was wrong and she was always running back to her mother and crying that I was this horrible human being. Then my husband would come home and blame me. I have 2 year old and my son has autism. He is 4 and a half still in diapers he can’t even speak a full sentence and has melt down at least 5 times a day. I am so overwhelmed and I don’t know how I’m supposed to do this. My husband is running around bad mouthing me to everyone who will listen and has most likely turned his entire family against me. I’m stuck here with these kids and no job while he’s out dating and flirting with women all over social media. I did not hate my stepdaughter but I didn’t love her I couldn’t I tried but there was nothing there and he’s telling everyone how horrible I was to her when I barely even spoke to her. Even up until the end I was still serving her meals but because I didn’t drop my kids like hot potato’s and kiss her ass at every chance she was here I’m a horrible person. This sucks and I don’t know where to go or vent or anything.