Costly medication makes me more resentful
I want to know what goes on with DH's finances because in the long run it affects me, but I really just want my head to be in the sand. I just found out that one of SS's medications costs over $400 a month. That doesn't include his psychiatry and psychologist appointments or his other meds for the month. It doesn't include all the other expenses, plus his allowance, plus his activities.
I am so reluctant to get a maid service even though I'm in my third trimester of pregnancy with no household help, yet eight times that outlay is going towards monthly expenses for SS crap and SD college. I am the maid, cook, and nanny. I should just blow the remainder of my husband's monthly earnings and just make my life easier, but that's just not me. I'm too frugal. I want to save even if it's not my money (though it really should be part mine since I'm staying at home and taking care of DS and soon DD as well).
Ugh, and I hate the pretending and putting on a show when I can't stand the stepkids because I see them as a complete money drain.
Update: I've been getting lots of negative comments that I should not feel resentment for the medical costs, but, this is a rant and I did not go into the entire situation of what's been going on in my household in this particular post.
There are facts that I failed to mention about SS and his medications. He's been on medication for 8 years or more. No one was taking the time earlier to actively teach him coping and learning mechanisms, so he's been relying on meds instead of behavior and life skills for more than half his life. And, even this new psychologist doesn't believe that he needs medication and her goal is to get him off of it at some point.
Look, I'm pissed about wasted money and I'm venting. No, this child does not have cancer or diabetes. And, if he ends up getting diabetes (which is likely given his eating habits and SS, DH, and BM's lack of getting him to eat healthy - not my words, his doctor's words) I'd still get him the medication. But, yeah, I'd still be super pissed about it.