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So ya know how I was bitching about SD8 having headlice again and how my husband and I got into a fight bc I didn't want her here bc I didn't want her depositing those nasty things everywhere she goes?....well after we had that BLOW OUT fight where I was the BITCH for not wanting her here, that asshole calls me today to tell me he called BM and let her know we(him and I) have "plans" this weekend so we couldn't get his BD. WHAT THE HORSE SHIT!!!!
I am so embarrassed and I feel so bad. Right now, I'm hiding in my office with the door closed.
BM is having her ovaries removed today to see if her supposed breast and uterine cancers has spread there too. If you've read my other blogs about SD's leukemia you will see why I say supposed.
I don't know what it is about my DH but every year when they holidays get stressful he goes around threatenting divorce....saying shit like if things don't change by the first of the year its over...last night it was I would rather be paying you child support thatn see you face anymore...
Well my our boys would at least get more from him that way...
SS10 is currently on his way home from hospital, the IV antibiotics have taken the swelling down & he's got a course of oral ones for the next few days.
Such a relief, and at least it means we should be able to enjoy our weekend by ourselves now - lunch with friends on Saturday, followed by the dreaded Xmas shopping!
Thanks for all the support this week guys with my paranoid musings, knackered ramblings et al. 
SD15 got head lice again about six weeks ago...she gets is a lot but it is never her fault. When we took foster kids it used to be that she got it from them...then she got it from her other half brothers at her mom's house, got it from a friend etc...WELL IF YOU STOP SHARING HAIR BRUSHES AND HATS, you wouldn't get it.
SS wants to fly home to stay at BM's for Thanksgiving but last time I checked its a recession...at the drop of a hat. DH said NO! SS asked in the email if you cant afford it ,then it can be my XMAS gift. I dont even get that much for a gift. DH just went to see SS in college 3 wks ago & it cost us $250. MIL wants SS to come to family holiday dinner. Of course, we arent going since she is carbon copy of BM.Im so happy that DH put his foot down. I reminded him that we dont need to go into credit debt for this.
Last night I was having trouble sleeping, but I noticed that I was still calm. Usually my insomnia makes me angry. Since I work nights, I get so little time with my family. I get so little time to split between my girls, my BF and his kids... and my BF! LOL
Last night I curled up next to BF and just marveled in the fact that I was content to just be next to his warmth. That all the kids were snug in thier beds happy with full bellies of dinner that I made.
A family. It makes me so happy.
I need another point of view, my SS12 is violent, cruel, selfish, and destructive!! The boy just threw a tantrum and broke the plate glass door out of our store($1000 in repairs) he has broke 4 more windows at home,broke doors, broke appliances,destroyed the other childrens toys,ripped down curtains,stabbed walls, kicked holes in walls. Not to mention pushing around my 4 year old, and saying things to my 9 and 7 year old that are sooo cruel! and the last time I slapped him for those bad words direceted at me last winter, he pushed me on the floor...
I'm not going to even bore anybody on here with anymore details, but I just think that it's pathetic that I can't even be happy in my own home anymore. I don't even want to be there. I'd rather work overtime, or take all the kids except for my ss anywhere but where he is. I feel worn out, beat up, stressed, depressed, and just plain sick and tired of that little bastard getting away with it all. I really want to thank all of you who have taken the time to give me advice in all of these matters, and who have listened to me whine like there's no tomorrow.
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