I AM Moving OUT!!!!
So I have come to a point where I realize that I can not live in my home with husband and step-daughters and still be happy and healthy. Things have been getting steadily bad, but this last year has been hell for me. And I just can't do it any more.
I had a heart-to-heart discussion with my husband, and am so grateful to him for being so understanding and supportive. He already new that we were having a really hard time, so I think he was not surprise when I said I need to move out. We have not told my step-daughters yet. They are going away to visit family on July 11th and won't be back until early August. I don't want them to be upset and angry, and ruin their whole trip. I think its best that I move my belongings out while their gone. And when they come back from their trip, we can talk about it together. Even though I won't be living in the home with them, that doesn't mean I will stop being their step-mom. That is for ever.
My husband and I agree that we can still be friends through this all. We will still be a part of each other lives. And I still want to be a part of my step-daughters lives.
This will be very good for me. I plan to move into my own place. And I plan to start the process of having a child on my own through sperm donation. I have always wanted to give birth to a child and this transition will actually help me to get to healthy place where that can happen.
I can finally live in a peaceful environment with no arguing, yelling, screaming, fighting, degrading or controlling behavior. This will be good for me.