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If you had 3 Wishes.............or If you could Change Something..............

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Well, it is Friday evening. I finally got a comment from my SD on her blog directly. Of course, everything was completely turned around. i.e. I, am at fault for everything, of course, she takes no responsibility, it is our fault for leaving, yaddy, yaddy. I took her Dad away and out of the state. How dare I send her a Christmas card? Why couldn't her Dad be bothered to even sign the card? How dare we not call her for her birthday? Never mind all the insultive things she has done to us over the last years. Hey, that's okay. I just put all this stuff together in a box so when she comes back wanting something, my husband says just give her the box. Maybe that's harsh. Maybe it's reality. But at 17 you know the difference between right and wrong and using people. Of course, I get the most giant insult, that of course, I wouldn't know anything about being a parent, b/c I have no children of my own. I haven't mentioned that I have had 3 miscarriages. My husband and I lost 2 children (boys) together (one that his children know about) and the 2nd was during the last tumultuous court proceeding and I didn't want anyone's sympathy or pointing at me. So, we never said anything to anyone. So basically, I've been kicked in the gut and my SD can't seem to remember any and all of the stuff we did together. It's like all those years and memories are gone. I talk about Jekyll and Hyde and it's so damn hard to deal with especially since it is a reality for me and my husband. It's almost like my SD is delusional or something. And then, I wonder if I had the ability to change something, what would it be? Is it any wonder that my husband jumped on a job opportunity to leave the area after being ignored and not wanted for years? We couldn't afford to live in the area and continue to pay for support and the continuous attorney fees for the frivolous law suits his ex-wife kept bringing to court. And yet, here I am still trying to defend myself.