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I've been on this high lately,  doing well. Happy focused, and proud! Then BOOM! SO starts his bs about my PTSD being my problem and that I  need to go to counseling.  All because he thinks he soooooo smart talking a psych online???? What?

He said he sent skid to his BM because of me not paying attention to him???? I told him that since we not married and there obviously no plans too then good! She finally wants to play mom by all means! Calling me mom is a privilege! 

Really??

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Ok peeps! Tell me if I'm wrong! I was babysitting my 3yr old granddaughter who well is the apple of my eye! She super smart, talks, potty trained,and independent!

I asked her to pick up her toys of which I couldn't see the floor. You know kids cry but if left alone will put it away??? Right?? I know her. I've taken care of her lots!

I don't baby kids, I teach them how to have manners.

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WtF

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OMG America! This chaos is going to suck! No school!for us steps...grrr....we look forward to the time away from these monsters! 

Ugh...the skids BM don't want to have him stay with her. But she can have All her other four kids from different dads stay through this 6 weeks.

I just knew she would tire of him

He wears his welcome out fast!Just when all was well.  Now DH doing the skids chores! While the lil punk plays volleyball against the wall????

I know this is wrong but for a moment I was hoping he would be quarantined with BM for 6weeks! 

Been A Minute

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Hello All! Its been awhile but I'm doing well. I been busy with my pots. Hanging with my bestie and well...it feels wonderful. 

Disengaging...Wow!.5 yes of torment and it was soooooo easy!

Of course SS is failing grades suck. He still smells horrifically like piss.He pulls his temper tantrums. But.....its ok. Its not my problem. He has a mom and dad

 Its their obligation! 

My daughter and granddaughter are great! We been spending more time together. She even said wow mom! You're smiling again!

Awesome Sauce! Thanks for the support!

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Loving myself

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Wow! Loving Yourself is easy when you let it happen.  I've struggled for so long..controlling my PTSD and Depression has been a journey! But I'm not giving up! I've been doing well..even though the SO is having silent moments.  But its making them think.  I'm smiling more! I even put on alittle make up. My pottery is working well......you know I am actually happy! It took many years many therapists and a lot of tears but I'm here! I'm alive! OMG!!!

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Finally

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Hello everyone! I finally have minutes! I took all your advice put on my big girl pants and......

I focused on my art! I made 6 beautiful pottery that I sold and welll....like was recommended split the bills down the middle and disengaged myself!

I created my own little sanctuary and dwelling in it! I spoke with my SO. He was upset but willing to accept my actions.  Hmmmm.....

Thanks everyone!

I'm trying I'm only human.  I make mistakes but I  do them from the heart!

I'm done

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Well peeps..the high only lasted a few days..Disengaging  has helped some. It sucks to watch the lil jerk get away with so much! And he loves it! I can't even stand to look at him..hearing his voice is even worse.

His stench is crossing the hallway...our guests are grossed out..yet nothing changes 

I need money for my phone to do my business and my jerk boyfriend won't help! What hurts is he put minutes on the lil shits phone????All my money goes to the Bill's! Stuff for the house tissue, detergent etc. Shit I can't even get a decent bra!!! I wash my hair with body soap...

First time

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First time ever I took chance had a wonderful day! I'm in my happy place tonight my valentine's to myself.  (Of course I recieved nothing.) Brat couldn't take his own meds split on his dad..he wallowing alone in the mess...dirty dishes stinky laundry etc...me??? I'm locked in clean room. My favorite pjs a great movie and comfort snacks! Yikes! First step! Baby steps! Love ya all!!!

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Thanks

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Thanks to you all for your support.  I cried myself to sleep. I'm trying to get up this morning but I don't know if.i can..I'm hurt and feel alone sitting here but I'm going to try my best to get through this day...thanks for the love!!

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