well we sent the email to hubby's brother about how we feel about him currently and what has lead up to us feeling this way about him but also what he can to to amends the rift...we haven't heard a thing from him but did get some texts from hubby's cousin whom we only see at christmas time and maybe once around their grandmothers birthday so that was nice to finally hear from someone only so they can complain at you.

the bm also picked up sd-6 on sunday night after us having her for a whole week and nothing was said at all the handovers are getting shorter and shorter basicly open the door hand over the child close the door oh don't for get the angry stare from bm the whole time. but then come monday bm text hubby having a complete metal over sd hair which we had cut due to the rattyness of it and the fact we had been mentioning sd needing one for nearly 3months with nothing happening so we did it again. i really wish i had it in me to just let sd look to way her mother leaves her with filthy clothes hardly any hygene practises and basily looking like a homeless person but it breaks my heart.

at the moment i'm feeling purticulary fragile as hubby's family and their contiual disrespect and lack of support is getting to me as i can't stand these people any longer there is no nice feelings between us now and it hurts as they are meant to be family and i really don't want to feel like i'm standing between hubby and his family but they are just not nice people. but also with all the court stuff that is pending and bm flying off the handle about anything and everything i'm feeling like i'm in a war zone currently.

i don't think life was meant to be so hard but it is and i don't think i'm handling it very well, poor me.

i know if i just grin and bare it we'll get through but i've had enough i feel somedays like saying to hubby that i need to get rid of him so that i get rid of the in-laws and the ex and life should be peachy again as i wont have to deal with it all but i don't want to give up my hubby...