OMG I am so pissed right now

OMG I am so pissed right now I could scream. I worked eight and a half hours today then went home picked up the house and then went to class tonight for 3 hrs. When I get home my dh was not there and he had left to get chinese for his son at four thirty the same time I left. So I went in to the local little bar and there he was and I said where is supper your kid is hungry. He comes unglued at me and says a lot of ignorant shit to me in front of his dirty unshowered bar fly friends that have no woman at home because they are so gross. He treats me sooooo disrespectful in front of everyone at the bar andis screaming at me, i was so stunned all i could do was stare at him. I wanted to drive my fist in his fucken face. He doesnt work and complains if he has to put dishes in the dishwasher. He is inconsiderate, and distrespectful to me lately more and more. He is getting a large sum of money from his family camp being sold so he is now feeling really important. This hurts my feelings and breaks my heart to be treated so bad, it should not surprise me since he has always allowed his family to mistreat me anyway and also just made it so I can never go back to that bar again. He was soloud you could hear him all over the bar. What the hell is wrong with someone like this? Why would he want to hurt someone that works hard, goes to school, cleans the house, does his laundry and so on. Is he that unfeeling. His family seems to be such a all for themself type of people. They dont like having a girlfriend or someone in their life. He had a useless x and I am nothing like her so why do I have to take all the shit that is handed out from his whole family? He never ever says he is sorry or says dont worry about it not one thing that might make me feel better. I am soooo heartbroken.

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I have been with him for

I have been with him for almost five yrs. I do not want to start over and leave and he knows this because he treats me like garbage really. Sometimes he just ok but really is not that nice to me. Everyone in his life comes before me. Even the bar really. I guess I dont mean anything to him and I should just face it and move on. I know he does not care if he is alone. I do. He has done this to me one other time and it shocked me then so I suppose I should expect humiliation from him now along with everything else he does to treat me like shit. The only thing he doesnt do is hit. That would be better than what I am getting though.

Im not judging, I am saying

Im not judging, I am saying this respectivly.
you said...
"I have been with him for almost five yrs. I do not want to start over and leave..."

Usually people don't want to start over cause they don't want to rebuild. But you need to ask yourself what is so worthy (by staying) that makes rebuilding the worse part?! IMO

Besides, the "dating" period may suck at times, but the "newness" of a relationship is uphoric!

Good luck to you and I am sorry he's an ass!

Thank you for all of your

Thank you for all of your words of encouragement. It helps because I feel so alone and beaten down. It is very hard to deal with this and especially at xmas time and trying to work extra hours and all. I have two grown kids with grandkids too. They have their own lives and are great i do not want them to know how I am treated here. Always with such disrespect. That hurts my feelings so bad and I am still very upset today. He went out to leave and came back in and I thought he was coming in to give me a kiss good bye since he always does and I thought mabe to apologize so I could at least go to work and feel better. He is very selfish because when I said "oh I thought you came back in to say you were sorry" he replies with, NOPE. I have to go work tonight and cannot call in and all I can do is cry. I do not know what to do. What the hell have I dont to deserve such humiliation is what I would like to know.

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