Darts, Dildos and Daring Lingerie take two...
Sorry but I have to laugh at how my last blog got a little off topic! Actually I appreciated the laughter plus the comments from people who "took my side" so to speak. I also try to aprreciate the other comments form those that think my way of thinking is wrong. Itdoes sometimes help me put things in perspective.
I know I sound like I hate his daugher but I don't. I just hate the dynamics when she is here. I hate my SO's behavior most of all. I hate how he sees no issues with how things are when she is here. I hate the hot and cold, the on and off,
He treats me like a roommate when she is here. He really truly is like Jekyll and Hyde. I was hoping counseling would help but all it's doing is highlighting the bad things about our realtionship with no ideas or solutions on how to make things better.
Tonight is day two of her being here. I cannot go somewhere. I was gone for most of the day shopping. It is 10pm and we just got home from dinner and I have been drinking so please dont bother responding with "just go do your own thing". At dinner he rubbed her arm twice. Not a big deal except for the fact that he has not touched me in front of her in God knows how long. He doesn't smile or act happy, Not just when she is in the room but more and more the entire weekend when she is here
Yes I will be calling him out on this. But for now I am just venting on here because I have no one else to turn too.
We get home from dinner and immediately he goes out to the garage. She changes as quick as she can, runs by me in the kitchen and they start to play darts. No "are you coming out?' From either of them. Yes I did buy the dart board for my SO for US. Yes I don't care if she plays once in awhile, but I wanted this to be our thing. And yes now I hate the fucking thing and will never want to play with him! Fuck him for ignoring me when she is here!
Oh and I do have a dildo to keep me company and he will not see me in daring lingerie for a long long time to come!!!