OK ladies is this good enought of all of you to see I have reached my breaking point? This is the leter I wrote and gave to my SO just now....
I am so sorry that me trying to give you a compliment and brag about you on FB has turned to this! My post would have made most men happy. You are using it as an excuse to make things bad between us!!!
I will be blunt – I am SICK OF YOU GIVING ME SHIT ABOUT THINGS!! Saying snarky things, getting upset about every little thing, holding things over my head etc. You can play dumb with me if you want but you and I both know that when I read my FB post you got annoyed. Why? I have no idea, but please do not insult me by turning this around on me or acting like you don’t know what you were thinking!!! I have done nothing wrong but, yet again, you have gotten upset with me, brought me to tears and then just ignored me!!!!! I think tonight has to be the defining moment for me. For us. For our relationship.
I was happy with what you did, proud to have you as my boyfriend. I have always been impressed with things you do. That is why I posted what I did. But you got upset by it!!! You have been just plain ugly towards me lately about the smallest things!! And I don’t deserve it!!!
On top of that I feel like you don’t trust me. I have never given you any reason not to but I can’t control how your mind works. You say so much shit when I even try to go anywhere on my own. Its either you get mad that I’m not home before you get home, you get upset that I stay longer then I think I will be gone, or you say snarky things like when I say I’ll be home at 3/3:30 and you say “OK I’ll see you at 5”. Or tonight it was like you were questioning my every move. Wow I went to McDonalds the other day before tanning! You then question why I was running late to get Olivia.
You come and go as you please and I NEVER give you shit!!! You couldn’t even text me after church to tell me you weren’t coming straight home! I finally had to call you at 1pm to see where you were only to find out after that you had lunch, gotten a haircut and an oil change!
I think none of this matters. What does is that I obviously don’t make you happy anymore. You have threatened to end our relationship SOOO many times. Maybe you are just pushing me to end things first. Hoping I will do so first so you don’t look like the bad guy. If you don’t love me, want a future with me, just say so!!!! I would rather be on my own then be with a man who is constantly finding fault with me!
I am so sick of how cold you have been towards me. It’s not even just when *** is here anymore. It’s on and off all the time now. Of course it’s worse when she is here though. You treat me like a roommate not a girlfriend when she is here. How many times have you kissed me this weekend? Touched me. Hell even smiled at me?
You’re welcome that I care for *** enough to push my own feelings down and put on a happy face for her as best as I could tonight. But obviously you think you can find someone better. I wonder if she wasn’t here how ugly things would have gotten tonight? Because you have been so cold and mean lately. Maybe this is all my fault because I have tried to let so many things roll of my back but tonight was my breaking point! I feel like nothing I do anymore is good enough. That I don’t make you happy. That every little thing makes you mad.
I am a good person! I am loving, faithful, intelligent, sweet, funny, giving, but none of that is enough for you. I will tell you *** – I am also strong and able to survive on my own. I am with you because I love you. But the last few months have been so up and down and I have no idea why. I can’t keep loving someone who doesn’t love me back. I think you regret moving in with me. I think you want to make things so ugly between us that you have an excuse for ending things. I also think you care more about what other people think of you then you do about me and my feelings!