I am tired and sometimes resentful
I hate admitting it. But I am tired. Very tired.
A quick backstory for you. My husband is disabled because of a permanent brain injury and his bipolar disorder. He also has Autism.
My step-son, who lives with us full time, also has Autism, ADHD, and Bipolar disorder.
It seems like every moment I am at home, I am fighting upstream to get my SKID to do his homework, or chores or just to stop running in the house.
The past two years have been a nightmare of behavior problems with him. He has been in special counseling programs and has been working with therapists. His dad and I are doing everything that the therapists tell us to do; but nothing seems to work.
The behavior problems and nasty behavior has just escalated lately. He has become hateful and unpleasant.
He is 11 years old. I have been his step-mother since he was 7. His bio-mother is not in the picture. She left because she couldn't handle life with an autistic child (even tho' he is extremely high functioning). Plus she is also Bi-polar. Last we heard she was homeless.
So, I try so hard to give my SKID a good life. I work and cry and try to help him grow to a good person.
But lately, I am so tired of his outbursts. Many times I just want to slap his disrespectful face. Of course, I wouldn't do it, ever. But the urge is there.
I have even started resenting my husband because I feel like he is easier on my SKID due to their similar conditions. Meanwhile, I am the one who is working and I come home to craziness.
I know it sounds horrible. And I feel bad for it. I just don't know what to do.