Well i have never "blogged" before, or written a diary, or spoken to really anyone about things going on with family life (with the exception of a few good friends) but i think desperate times call for change, and im hoping this might help
i guess ill introduce my situation as breifly as possible, and get more into detail with later posts.
My name is Jess (22) and i have been with my SO (25) for almost 2 years. we are currently expecting our first child together (baby boy 35 weeks) and my SO has a child from a previous relationship who is 6 years old.
Me and SO actually met working 12 hour shifts at a factory 2 years ago, and i always knew he had a son. (we were friends for a while first) but after we began dating we agreed to take things slow, and i would only meet his son if things became serious, because at the time neither of us were really looking for a relationship, we were trying to get our lives together. but like most stories go, we ended up falling pretty hard for eachother and after a few months i ended up meeting his son. the main reason we ended up rushing the meeting (with me and SS) was because of our schedules, me and SO could only see eachother at work (he had his son) so yes, we moved a little fast. i had never been with anyone who had a kid before so i was really nervous about it, and i really didnt want any "babymamma drama" in my life either. but anyways, i originally told myself i would meet the mother BEFORE i met SS, just because i would want the same if i had 50/50 custody of my own son. but once i got to know more of their history and how she treats her son and my SO i couldnt bring myself to do it. besides that, she didnt even care or ask to meet me. (says alot huh?) she had no interest at all. i will have to make a whole other blog/post on her.. she would take days to explain. but needless to say me and SS hit it off instantly. he adores me and all of my hobbies (hunting/fishing/etc) and pretty much envys everything i do lol and i adore him as well. his father though, being a young single dad... needed HELP. when i first came into the picture, his parenting was not the best. ill say it. he was so used to just being casual with things because he only got to see him every other weekend that this kid was just a mess. no manners, picky eater, spoiled, etc. but he asked for advice and guidence from me (lots of childcare experience) and i was happy to help. i stepped in, and guided SO to a much better behaved child. and all with simple changes in everyday life, no drastic disipline needed. for a few months we were really happy despite a few typical hiccups from BM. but living situations changed, and then came the outside stress that wore down our relationship, and then more problems with BM and then more changes, and then more hiccups or road bumps or what have you, and then, suprsingly, (to us) my pregnancy came about. deffinitly NOT at a good time, but we are more than excited now, with only a month left. but the past year has been ROUGH. all relationships in the family are strained. even my own with my SS. im at a loss for words. i know we havent had things easy, and alot of our problems stem from BM and finances, but the strain it has caused between all of us has made every other weekend (our weekends with SS) not exactly "bliss". and this is where my desperate reach out for other SP and blended families comes in. i know with out more details its difficult to relate too, but with a few more posts ill get there. its hard to admitt defeat, im beat, i cant even lie anymore. i need help pulling together and keeping this family together again for the birth of our son who is gonna be here in ONE month.. so this is where i stand right now. this is where things are, and how they came to be (sort of) and i hope once i get some time i can explain in detail things i could use a vent/help with. or maybe even just typing a way alone will help who knows. lol thanks for reading this long boring post if you did.