Thankful for this site.
I'm new to posting but a few weeks in from lurking.I found this site while searching for help with my issues. It has seriously helped me so very much these last few weeks. After much lurking I see I am not alone, I am not a horrible human and I'm just at the end of my sanity rope. I don’t know how or where to even start with my madness. I just wanted my first post to thank everyone here. I’ve been a wreck the past few weeks, I’ve lost weight, sleep, I’ve fallen behind on adult responsibilities and truly I’m a depressed wreck. I stumbled across this page about a week into my most recent trip to hell and it has been a life saver! It’s helped me realize and relax a little. My situation is not unique or as scary, now that I know I’m not alone and there is much advice out there from people who've been through it too. Every time I find myself going into a deep hole of sadness, I open up this site and read more into the lives of others in similar situations. I’ve only been a “SM” a little over a year as my SO and his daughter moved in with me and my son. His daughter is usually here 50/50. Usually I say because really she does whatever her and her mother want without the care of what SO thinks. It’s just all around heartbreaking and super stressful for me. As a mother to my own birth child with a 100% healthy, happy and fully kept out of court custody agreement with my DS11 father, I’m absolutely mind boggled to see how other families play out, including the man I love with his HCBM.
So thank you to whomever created this page, thank you to everyone being brave and sharing their stories. Soon I will figure out a way to share mine, until then I just appreciate what this page has done for me mentally. It’s ok to hate your Skid, it’s ok to not want to be around them or even fear them, it’s ok to start disengaging after stretching myself so thin to only be torn apart when things don’t go their way. I’m tapped out, I’m done and watching my SO try to enforce rules but then the kid vanishes for weeks on end is truly heartbreaking. Teenagers are scary, teenage step daughters give me nightmares.
Thanks again y'all
-Newly Blended Hell