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I can't believe I am becoming one of those stepmoms who hates their 4 year old.

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Submitted by misscinna on Thu, 03/08/2012 - 11:18am

I feel so hurt and upset and angry. My ss3 (stb 4 in may) has been a COMPLETE ASSHOLE to me for the last 2-3 weeks. The only consolation is that he is an asshole to his mom too. Lately he's been going through a phase where he only wants daddy. He wont talk to me unless he wants to know where daddy went or has an oddball question. He doesn't want to stay with me. He wants to be his dad's fucking girlfriend. Whenever dad is around he crawls ALL the fuck over him. To the point where FDH pushes him off his lap because he shoves his sisters to the side.

Wtf is going on?!?

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Submitted by misscinna on Wed, 03/07/2012 - 8:01pm

I feel like I should be talking to Houtex. BOTH my 3 and 5 year old skids are shitting themselves (the 5 year old is only pissing herself and has shat herself once cuz she couldnt get to the bathroom) right before and after they come home from BM's

First day of disengagement

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Submitted by misscinna on Sat, 03/03/2012 - 1:02pm

Ss3 is loving it. Gets to do what he wants. No one to tell him no unless its dangerous or its something he wants but cant do himself. Sd5 is trying really jard to suck up and please me. Why? I have no clue. I briefly explained what was going to change, why, who to ask for things and that it wasnt a punishment. Sd10 is mad at me. First she cried. Then she called daddy to tell on me that I wont do what I normally do. Then she hid in her room all day. Shes angry that the good morning wake ups, the hair braiding, all the little gifts at the store stop unless I WANT to.

How does a custodial smom disengage? Need some tips

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Submitted by misscinna on Fri, 03/02/2012 - 10:57pm

I am tired of everyone wanting something from me and just expecting presents, new clothes, etc like I owe someone something. My sd10 was busily telling all the other kids tonight that their family is mom, dad, kid 1-5 etc. and no one else. And I think to myself wow you have some fuckin nerve. You asked me to braid your hair, you want me to play with you, you fight the other kids to be the center of attention, you whine about how its not faaaair if someone else gets something from the store and you dont.

Oh the classy lessons skids learn from BM

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Submitted by misscinna on Thu, 03/01/2012 - 2:02pm

Sd5 informed me that her mom told her (yet again) that when we move she wont have enough money to ever see her again. Did I mention she has been repeating this mantra every.single.time she sees them? She wants a reaction. They are excited to move and looking forward to it and I think she is either saying this over and over again to get them to show they are sad about moving and will be devastated not ever seeing her again and burst into wild hysterics OR she is hoping that saying this again and again will make them mad at us and blame us for taking them away from her.

I didn't really think it would come to this

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Submitted by misscinna on Fri, 02/24/2012 - 10:49pm

Well ladies (and gentlemen) I'm not sure where things are at with SO but for me they are at a screeching halt. My birthday was 2 days ago and it happened to be my magic number birthday where I had thought prior to now that by this age I would be on my way to married, start a family, etc. I get that life doesn't always work in those ways but I've had a startling epiphany. I don't even have these options available to me. I can't live with that. SO (he has been downgraded from FDH) has been pussyfooting about marriage/kids issue for a while now (almost a year) we've been together for 4 years.

Im tired of the dynamic

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Submitted by misscinna on Thu, 02/23/2012 - 4:00pm

Lately i've found myself tired of my own behavior. Skids annoy me, i feel no enjoyment or fun with them - just work. It feels like constant work. I dont know how to balance it. Its like constant discipline, correction, things to do. I guess if im not having fun they probably aren't either. I dont want to be "the wicked stepmom" where we never have a good time. I just feel constant stress and pressure to make sure theyre raised right, the home is right, evrything is cared for. Im tired. Tired of trying so hard, tired of wondering whether they'll grow up to hate me or love me.

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