So this isn’t really step related BUT I’ve had MRSA since March. Inside my breast. I have chronic health issues that make things more complicated. I’m likely being hospitalized for IV vancomycin Wednesday when I see the specialist. I’m terrified of hospitals. I wish things with step family was better and so many issues. I am a Christian and have been feeling distant from God. My choice. I just haven’t been prioritizing for a year now. I been out of church and out of studying properly and just really lazy and all around not who I want to be. Part of this guilts making me want to fix everything in case something bad happens but I don’t have the ability or energy to even try. Just prayers by any fellow followers of Jesus would be appreciated and any similar experiences or mrsa stories. I’ve has vancomycin and keflex once before and it screwed my gut up for years and now I’ve had several keflex and bactrim scripts plus more drugs now. I’m scared and I’m sad. Wish our families didn’t have so many problems. Makes hard times harder for sure.