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i know it's wrong to hate but i haaaaaaaaaaaaate bb

lmdavi0's picture

i am feeling that ever familiar rage again today. why? because i hate crazy people! just thinking about how twisted and corrupt their image is of us tears me up. do they actually believe we are the bad guys? how can they?!!!! ALL we want is to spend time with sd and for those four days a month, they hate us, they tear us apart, they blame us, and they pick pick pick!!!! i just can't take it today. i really really really try to live my life happy and kind, always thoughtful of others and i definitely don't go about trying to ruin people's lives. i will never understand their motivation, but it just breaks my heart. we want to be thanked and appreciated but all we get are lies and maliciousness. if everything happens for a reason, i am super curious as to what the future holds for us. please keep us in your prayers. and may i continue to bite my tongue. i don't want to resort to elementary school tactics...even though i would so enjoy it! i heart men with teeth!
i had to throw that one in there.


Conflicted's picture

I'm in the same boat as you and some days are so much harder than others. I have been having such a hard time as well and really do feel your pain.

Please don't forget that everything DOES happen for a reason and one day you WILL know what the reason is, it will all come together when the time is right. I believe that we are all supposed to learn from our difficulties and that there is a reason for all of it.

Please don't loose faith, things will get better for you and dh, just hang in there.

Oh! and good job for not giving into the immature games. I constantly have to keep myself in check because I too want to join in and poke back once in a while!

GoingNuts's picture

I know what you mean as well. We have had a really hard time. It to the point that I have trouble staying focused at work. We are not only going to court in December but know she is dragging the other children into her problems and blaming them too. I pray every night for a change for the best. I just wish more people actually thought about the children instead of themselves.

Conflicted's picture

in fact, I'm at work right now and cannot think about ANYTHING other than this big mess with BM.

I know that everything happens for a reason, I need to let go and let God, Karma comes back around, etc.

BUT knowing and applying these truths are completely seperate for me when it comes to this crazy life involving a crazy bm!

Colorado Girl's picture

the whole situation consumes my life sometimes. I'm at work stressing about everything but work. I think I'm just having a bad "BM" day. Sad

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...It's about learning to dance in the rain."

Austen's picture

except that after DH pays for CS and dance lessons, sports, school stuff, bills and I pick up the rest of the bills -- I've got nothing left. }:)

lmdavi0's picture

thank you ladies. it feels so good to vent!!!!!!!

always forgive your enemies, nothing annoys them so much.