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Would you be upset? (plus, a bit of venting)

lil_teapot's picture

Would you be upset if your guy didn't tell you about a parent-teacher conference and you had to learn about it from the skids? The skids told me about it last night during dinner. It was a crappy evening anyways because they hurried home from (you guessed it) hockey. I had to whip up dinner (nobody told me they were coming) which they only picked at, then fh took them to religion...leaving me with the dishes, cleanup, etc...and off to work he went. I saw him for like 10 minutes. So I was to say a bit salty.lol
Plus he was all angry because him and ss12 got into it bigtime before getting home so they were both just evil. I tried hugging fh and being super-nice but he just was still angry at ss12. So when they're leaving, I go to hug fh and he is turned kinda sideways away from me and gives me a hug with one arm...like a sports hug or something. I was pissed then and said don't bother to touch me if you can't even do it right. So he tries to correct himself and turn for full frontal hugging and I'm like, yuk get away it's so fake now. So he tries kissing me and I'm all cold. I wasn't like super-mondo-bitchy but I let it be known through my body language that I was not ok with what had transpired.
So they leave, and a few minutes fh texts me to say thanks for dinner he appreciated it very much and loved me very much. I figured I'd just let the anger go and move on since he said that and it seems he's trying. I'm sure I'm a bit too picky and he was raised to be very stoic and non-emotional but he normally behaves more loving than he's been lately. I still feel like he's having or planning an affair. His depression or whatever is making me unhappy, which makes him unhappy, which leads me to believe he wants to have an affair and maybe is having one.
Oh, that was the final kicker on my evening. I found a hair in my bed...3 inches long, coppery looking...looks like it coulda been from exW. But here's what happened...I had been sitting on rug before bed changing purses. The floors are all hardwood with oriental rugs thrown here and there. Nobody has ever cleaned this place very well at all...i've done what I can but not super-clean like I would like. So, when i got into bed, the hair could have been on the rug and got on me and onto the bed...I doubt the floors or rugs have been cleaned very well as evidenced by the vast amount of dirt I found under ss12's bedroom rug. Anyways, I got upset wondering if he was sleepign with her but the bed showed no other hairs or signs of sex (since we haven't been together in 10 days or so...sorry if tmi btw). So I'm trying to figure the hair got in the bed in some stupid way...and maybe even the hair isn't exW's...ss12 has a girl wig he wore for halloween 2 years ago and he messes around with it sometimes so maybe it's from that...

I'm sorry for the venting. If anyone has anyting to add that would be super. I'm just hoping someone can tell me if I should be mad though about the parent teacher conference. I wasn't intending to go cuz it's not my place, and I'm not mad about that or 'them' being there 'together'...i just feel like if i live there why aren't i important enough to be in the loop???

thanks everyone Smile

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sam's picture

For you to know whats going on that is how one feels like they are part of the family.You should talk to your dh and tell him that if you are going to be a family unit being open and honest with eachother is very important and to leave you out of things will just cause resentment.I wouldnt base your relationship on finding a hair maybe your dh is working hard and tired?Maybe you and him should take a break and go get a room for valentines day and spend that weekend to yourselves to catch up on things.People get to comfortable in relationships and sometimes you have to add some spice.

lil_teapot's picture

i'd like to talk to him and maybe sort out why he does the things he does. we have counseling friday so i'll bring it up then...it's just SOOOOOO hard keeping this all inside until then. he's not easy to talk to about things alot of the time.
you're way right though sam, he is definitely beyond tired working 3rd shift so that may be part of it.
maybe things will perk up with a little romance? i hope so

KittyKat's picture

I think YOUR FH and MY H are totally off the reservation. I'm gonna stop TRYING so hard with him, too, just LET THINGS fall into place. Do you want to try that with me, girlfriend? Maybe if we stop giving them so much of our PRECIOUS ENERGY, they'll wise the hell up!

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."-Eleanor Roosevelt

lil_teapot's picture

i'd also like to stop being the slave too...no more dishes or housework or cleaning up the messes him and the skids create. maybe i'll take a day off from that too and regroup.
cocktails anyone?lol

LizzieA's picture

A couple of my hard-earned lessons--take time everyday for you--whether it's a bath, manicure, browsing and buying something cute, a walk, read, music--anything that you can look forward to and that reminds you of your own unique beauty and personality.

I've been the work horse myself and it's thankless. If I wish anything it's that I asked for (and insisted) on getting more out of a lazy man.
(and in your case, kids)

You'll feel more empowered instead of "one down" like a victim. If he is having an affair, which I hope not, then he's an ass and SHE can take care of those lovelies...