Lately DH keeps telling me he "can't wait for me to be on xanex" because I try to plan things out . BM has been playing with the schedule a lot lately which is driving me bonkers
I only care because that messes up my plans . Food prep etc. But today it was him switching things around.
He uses my car and has for the last year when his started having issues. I told him once he brings the kids ( I get off working from home around then) I'll be taking it over to get some drinks for the house. This is timed with the curry I'm making to a tee so it won't over cook. Morning goes well.
He comes home between his work and pick up and says he's going to go to the bait store with the girls. I ask him if he can't just leave early and do it on the way. He again goes into I need xanex etc.
I explain that rationally I just feel like I've lost control these days .His kids cause the usual kid damage to my car and I can't use it on the weekends because he never tells me what's going on during the day
Instead of understanding he goes "fine - I'll take an Uber instead " ( he knows this will bug me )
He goes pouts in the bathroom and comes back out to say " BM is dropping them off hope you are happy"
Silence for awhile and then " thanks but I'm good on your dinner ". ( He is also well aware this will hurt)
I want to cry but BM might be here to see or the kids might report if they see me like that. Do I actually need Xanex or is my DH trying to gaslight me into thinking I do?
God I need wine. The big bottle.