I just got home from work and feel like I've been run over by a truck. It's been stressful there lately, and I'm on a lack of sleep. My lack of sleep is caused by FDH hitting his snooze button three times this morning until I was unable to fall back to sleep. It actually happens often.

He has to get up for work much earlier than I do, and I have a hard time falling asleep at night, so I'm up much later than him. When I wake up at the same time as him I've lost a few hours of sleep. I wear earplugs at night because of his snoring, so I can usually go back to sleep if his alarm wakes me up once...more than that and I can't.

I'm rambling and taking too long to get to the point...sorry. Well, if anyone is still with me, this is why I'm angry:

After his alarm went off three times and he hit the snooze button AGAIN, I nudged him. He flipped out on me! He threw the covers off hard, hitting my arm in the process (didn't mean to), and said "Jes*s Chr*st!!, blah, blah, blah!". I was like, WTF??!! I couldn't help it, and I felt stupid, but the tears came (he had already gone downstairs). After he got in the shower I came downstairs and got some coffee. On his way out the door he tried to kiss me and I blurted out, "You're a fucking abusive asshole!" He tried to apologize and I said, "Fuck your sorry, you're always sorry!".

Why I'm hurt: SD10 wakes him up EVERY Saturday and Sunday morning that we have her at 7-8am!!, after he's been up late, and he's never even said a peep to her. It's not that I want him to yell at her, it's just that I don't know why it's so easy for him to get mad at me. My head tells me that he's afraid to upset her and isn't as careful about that with me, but my heart tells me that he just doesn't love me as much...there's the pity-party part!

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When I got home from work he tried to hug me like nothing was wrong, but I am so tired that I just kind of pulled away . It really sucks because it's our last night alone together before a three day weekend with SD, and his parents are coming on Saturday...UGH!!

This is nothing compared to what most ladies go through on here, but I just needed to get it out.