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JJO's picture

I just don't understand him. It is impossible. Right when I think we are over this crap -there it is again and again...and again...
I just want to punch him so hard. I don't want to talk to him about it,or try to understand why he said that. I don't even want him to apologize .I don't care if he is sorry. He has apologized to me so many time in this past year,that the word has lost its meaning. How crazy is that! It sounds so empty and meaningless. Where I come from we say " From the day "i'm sorry" was launched, people lost their decency". And I couldn't agree more.

So,we have 2 dogs in the house ,a boxer and a poodle. The boxer cannot be easily controlled - he still acts like a puppy- and every time we open the door the dog runs outside goes to neighbors yards - barks at cars ,people walking down the street and so on. Last night, when we came back home with our hot pizza for dinner,I told him that I will get in the house first to keep the dogs away from the door so that he and SD5 can get in the house without having to worry about it.

Note that the boxer is very clumsy and knocks SD5 down often and then she cries,yells at the dog , doesn't love him anymore and anyway we get a lot of drama.

So I open the door, and try to close it fast behind me cause big guy was already there trying to sneak out. I noticed that SD5 is right behind me trying to get in so i block the door with my foot.
DH shows up right behind her and yells at me about what I am doing and that "his child" is trying to get in the house and I almost broke her arm! He actually said the words! And when they got in he continued by saying that she had her arm inside and i was pushing the door closed.

NO SHE DIDN'T!! And he knows. the only thing I told him was that he is very lucky - implying that he is lucky to avoid the argument because I don't want to argue in front of the child.
I didnt have dinner last night, he sent SD twice to ask me if i wanted some pizza. He showed up at the patio where I was sitting, to ask me how come i didn't see that she was trying to get in, and that he saw her holding the door nob with both hands (oh , wasn't one arm inside? ) and that he can't understand why I am so upset.

That is my husband , trying to drive me crazy I guess. No doubt about it. I haven't said a word to him. I just can't bring myself to do it. He is acting like a 12yo, making up stories , to prove that what? idk.. that he loves and protects his daughter? i really dont know. Like I said , i don't understand him. I am thinking that he might have some kind of mental illness. He sees things that do not exist.

And I know I heard SD talking to him about it, and apparently she said that i was not trying to break her arm. But what if she had said the opposite?
What if she used the crap that came out of his mouth , to make up a story to tell at school or even worse at her mom?
How nice that would be?

I am furious, and hallowed once again.

Comments

caregiver1127's picture

SpunkiDoolittle - I have a solution for you - take his car keys and when he wants to leave in the morning he has to come to you - after about a week it should become a habit after a while. Just try it and see what happens.

JJO's picture

Ok , so what do you do? take it lightly? I mean, i could take it lightly and talk about it in very civilized way tonight, but i don't really want to :sick: I just want to punch him and punch him again so that next time he thinks about saying something like that to remember his broken tooth..? :?

JJO's picture

I hear you Smile

And I agree with you, only in this case wouldn't that result to another " I am sorry babe"?
If I hear that one more time i will explode!

JJO's picture

Well say no more, cause that is exactly what he said as well. Along with , "from my viewing angle it looked like that".. "I am sorry (drrrrrrums ) I overreacted"..

The problem is that , just like I told him a few minutes ago, no matter what I do for her and how much I care since I am not her mother , my intentions will always be under the microscope. He will always question my actions and the things I say while if i was the birth mom this would 've been a non-issue.

An apology is not enough cause this thing has way deeper roots. In the way he perceives me and the way I treat his daughter.

So I guess my tittle from now on will have to be the "Jealous Evil Step mom" until proven otherwise. Sounds like a constant struggle to me.

cyberwoman's picture

I don't blame you for being upset it is bad enough to be perceived as enemy #1 by BM and skids you don't need this crap form DH. Talk to him and tell him he hurt you and he is hurting your relationship by behaving this way.

lisa510's picture

JJO
I understand your feelings. I feel like my DH doesn't know how to balance between my and SD16. He's always apologizing because he reads into things that I say. He actually accused me of plotting against her! I told him he was nuts - I am not an evil person by nature. I COULD be evil, but it doesn't come naturally to me.

You're right: if you were the BM of this little girl, things would have turned out differently.

I've told my DH the same thing. If I was the BM, we would have talked about it - you would not immediately think I hate your daughter!