I hate the person I turn into more specifically when my SD is around. She makes me angry and resentful and mean. I feel like a fucking evil step mom when she’s around. All she does though is cry and throw fits about everything. I make her breakfast and it’s not what she wants boom throwing a fit and screaming about it. I ask her to go play boom throwing herself on the floor. I tell her to stop being mean to her sister boom an attitude like you wouldn’t believe.

I said something and now I’m alone. I asked my BF for help with our kids and now he’s not talking to me. I just wanted him to come home. No I needed him to come home my health and our babies health depend on it. Being alone for 5 days out of the week with my DD 1 and SD 4 along with being pregnant for months it feels like has put so much stress on me and my body. After taking the stress and everything else that’s involved with taking care of kids by yourself I finally broke.

My SD 4 is taking antibiotics for not her first but second UTI infection with in the past couple months. She refuses to wipe herself at all when using the restroom so when my BF is here he cleans her, but when it’s just me she just doesn’t clean herself up at all. He insists that she needs help doing it, but I’ve shown her how and made sure she knows how to do it ever since I potty trained her. She just doesn’t like to do it herself. As her step mom I’m not comfortable wiping her when she can do it by herself. She’s definitely old enough and capable of doing it but she’s just lazy.

I’m only at 25 weeks at this point, but everyone and everything is getting to me. I’m either angry or upset all day long and I can tell it’s starting to effect both of my kids. I don’t have the energy or the will to sit and play with my 4 year old and my 1 year old is driving me crazy with needing to be on top of me constantly. I never get a break from either of them during the week because my BF is staying at his aunts house to work since he wrecked our car over a mont ago.