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My much needed vacation...

Imustbcrazy's picture

So, mentioned last week we were going to a concert. 7th row seats to the "All American Rejects" they were playing at our county fair. Well... DH and I were having a great time before the concert started... went into the ampatheater... walked up to our seats a little before the opening act started. Turned to hang my sweatshirt on the back of my chair and guess who waves at me.... YOU GUESSED IT... BM... sitting about 5 rows directly behind us. Real nice. So I told DH, "that's nice, there's your ex, waving at us"... GREAT. So, DH was totally uncomfortable and what I thought would be a nice night out for the two if us, turned into a concert that I may as well have gone to alone because he didn't want to "rub it in her face" because he knows she is still in love with him. Whatever. So, she has SS Tuesday, Wednesday and Saturday nights... she went to concerts last week on Ruesday, Wednesday and Saturday night... so the first word about her missing SS, I will strangle her.

We went to Vegas on Friday though and got home yesterday. my girls were with thier dad and we let SS stay with DH's mom (BM HATES HER with a passion, so it just made her mad... but she never asks us to watch him when she has plans on her nights... and we RARELY have plans on our nights, so it was nice to be able to "return the favor"). Vegas was nice. We saw a few shows, had some drinks out by the pool... checked out the sites. It was really nice to just get away from reality. I needed it BAD... got the kids last night at 6 and went home and played with them... we missed them so much. I was woken this morning to my cell phone ringing... my sister, they took my grandma to the ER early this morning. She was having trouble breathing. She has cancer of EVERYTHING, and I am not exaggerating. She has tumors all the way up her spine, on her ovaries, lung cancer... and last month was diagnosed with Brain Tumors. She has refused chemo from day one and has been living in a lot of pain for a very long time. She is my last living grandparent and my mom is a wreck. They live 8 hours away and I wish I could jump on a plane right now and be there with her. She has congestive heart failure and fluid on her lungs. It was not looking good at all this morning, but I just talked to my uncle and he said she ate lunch, which means she was awake! That is much better than this morning. She is ready to go and we are all prepared (as much as you can be) for it. She is miserable and just wants to "go home" she says, to see grandpa and Jesus. So, say a little prayer for my family... we are selfish.


Sebbie's picture

Lovers do not finally meet somewhere, they were with each other all along.

Especially for another(your grandmother). I am so sorry her last days have been of such physical suffering, I hope the Doctors have kept her well medicated to ease at least some of the pain. My prayers are with you and your family.

Imustbcrazy's picture

Her heart and mind are ready to go,and have been for a long time. But her body just won't let go. She is doing a little better. I guess she had a massive heart attack and the doctor does not think she will make it through another. So they took her out of ICU (there is no reason for it since she does not want to be resessitated) and in a few days they are putting her in a convelescent hospital until she is breathing better, if she makes it that far. I am not sure what she is holding on to. Anyways, thank you for your prayers. I just don't want her to be in pain anymore. They are keeping her medicated (which she usually refuses, so she HAS to be in a lot of pain because she is actually requesting them) so she is somewhat comfortable... but with tumors and cancer throughout her body, it only subsides some of the discomfort. I just want her to stop hurting. I talked to her yesterday and she was pretty out of it telling me she looks like the "Queen of Sheeba" because she had no teeth in and her hair was a mess and everyone keeps telling her she looks beautiful. She is funny. It was good to hear her voice though. We are just kinda waiting things out to see how far she makes it this time. So, it is heartbreaking to hear her like this and I can't imagine how my mom feels watching her mother go through this.

Hangin in there...

Daddys Gurl

It's Better To Have Loved And Lost, Than To Have Spent The Rest Of My Life With THAT PSYCHO!!!!