The past few days have been awful. He has given me no space, and I felt I could not breathe. Yesterday, I had a long day at work, hours of driving, then working far away, and coming back. I was at work for more than 12 hours. This is ok when it is needed, of course, but the night prior to yesterday, he kept me awake until only four hours before I had to go to work. I begged him, "please let me sleep. You know I have a long day tomorrow. I will be unsafe if I do not sleep." He repeated many times, "I am upset and you will deal with it!"

My husband is trying quite hard to win me back since he found out I actually will leave him, and am planning this. He has been very nice to me for several days now, but I think it is all acting. On Monday night, he was very angry with me, and kept me awake all night. The main subject of this conversation was his son, mostly how awful he thinks it is that I do not like his son. During these conversations, after these years, I now detach a bit from the emotion, and try to observe him and understand what is happening.