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seems like alot of women here lately are ending their relationships....

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Submitted by happymostly on Thu, 03/24/2011 - 11:19pm

I know I am on that path as well. Going to a therapist tomorrow and try to figure whats going on in my head and heart and how my H will ever get it through his skull that this is going to happen whether he really wants it to or not... It still sucks though, I feel bad for hurting him, and knowing that I had it pretty easy in the step family department, bm was the only psycho one at times. H is not a guilty daddy, he actually parents, and bm parents sometimes.

Why cant she keep herself entertained?!

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Submitted by happymostly on Sat, 03/19/2011 - 9:29am

H is at his daytime weekend work and I just happen to get this day off. Usually he takes her with him when its his weekends with her because I have work. But hes omly been gone 2 hrs and shes already up my butt wanting me to play with her! Lol thank god my mom (sd calls her grandma lol) is here too and doesnt mind watching her while I try to do some schoolwork. But shes 7 shouldnt she be able to self entertain for atleast an hour?! She can when h is here... Maybe she thinks me and grandma are pushovers haha shes got another thing coming if she thinks im going to be her playmate all day.

sd & H on the way for spring break...

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Submitted by happymostly on Mon, 03/14/2011 - 4:34pm

H went to pick up sd for spring break visitation. Technically per the new CO, its bm's week this year, but she offered it to H. I am going to be busy working all week which I am kind of happy about, but kinda sad as well because I dont know how much more I am going to see sd before me and H most likely split up. I'll be with her all day tomorrow though.

ot- im not crazy

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Submitted by happymostly on Sun, 03/13/2011 - 8:22pm

that incident that happened (blog posted titled as dh scares me on 1/27) was NOT something small. I am not CRAZY. H keeps saying that 'that one tiny incident shouldnt make you question our marriage' it wasnt just that! I started feeling that way in december, but just realized it more after that incident that I wasnt happy. I am sorry I feel this way. I wish that me feeling this way would not possibly break up our marriage. He also says 'its just the stress of school, work, and feeling like I am a burden that makes you feel unhappy' its not just stress.

ot - possible *soontobe* cheating...?and some 'mature' content

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Submitted by happymostly on Wed, 03/09/2011 - 5:34pm

my H left his phone here before class and I usually dont snoop through his things honestly. He usually tells me if he starts talking to any other women like if he works with them and he'll tell me about them. I usually dont care. (and now that things are going south between us, I virtually dont care at all) but I just had a slight feeling, so I went through this text messages and his contacts.

random blog

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Submitted by happymostly on Mon, 03/07/2011 - 4:06pm

got a book based on a recommendation from mommylove a long time ago. its called Too Good To Leave, Too Bad To Stay by Mira Kirshenbaum. About helping you decide if you want to stay in the relationship you're in. Really hoping it helps me! after me and H had our talk, I am so not sure anymore. I mean Im not happy still, but when hes in a good mood I almost forget about wanting to leave. I dont know... and now hes more for going to marriage counseling than he was before, but now I am not sure it will be even worth it.

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