Emotional wreck today
I’m such an emotional wreck today. I can’t stop crying. I guess you can say I’m having a pity party. Many of you know that my two kids are away at college. They are not near by so it’s a weekend trip to see them. My son asked DH and I to come up for one of his games. My son is the type of kid that doesn’t ask for something unless it means something to him. He’s kind of a depressed kid. He sees stuff his dad does for his sister and he always feels left out. DH and I said of course! Well guess what. There isn’t a free weekend where DH’s kids don’t have an activity. Even on the weekends we don’t have them they have stuff going on. DH won’t miss anything that they do. I’m having the pity party for myself that we live down the street from his kids and mine are 8 hours away. DH canceled last time we were going to do something with my son because his daughter wanted him to go to something of hers. I’m at all the skids activities. I want my kids to feel loved by DH too. He shouldn’t make plans with mine that he can’t follow through with. I’m always left going alone and having to explain why he didn’t come. I feel like a bad mom. I can’t even talk to DH because somehow he gets defensive when his kids are ever mentioned. He takes it when I say you don’t understand because we go to all of your kids activities as I’m saying it’s his kid’s faults. Everything gets turned around and he’s in daddy protective mode which is a waste because I’m not fussing about his kids. Sometimes it’s about me and how I’m feeling. Maybe because of this marriage I am feeling like a bad mom. Who knows. I just know this really sucks.