I am so nervous about next week! DH & I got a letter from SD's school asking for a meeting with the counselor, teacher, and who know who else. I believe that SD is in the spectrum, but I don't want her to go to special classes. I believe that it is her social skills that make her an ESE student, not her intelligence. She is a smart kid, she just doesn't know how to relate to other kids her age. I think that by putting her in a special class it will make her more of an outsider and she may never learn how to relate to kids her age. I know that an ESE teacher may be able to give her the attention she may need, but I don't think she'll learn how to be "normal".

I honestly cannot believe that I am becoming a "mama bear" for her. She still annoys me, but like I said in my very first post, I want to bond with her. I want to accept her as one of my own. I can't say that I we have gone that far, but I am able to stand her better. I am thinking it has something to do with me talking with DH and he making more of an effort to step-up and be an active parent. I have spoken to him on several occasions, with the most recent being a week ago. I am hoping this isn't a a temporary thing.

Going back to me becoming a "real" mom to SD. I have to guess that part of my resentment towards SD was coming from DH. He wasn't helping me with anything when it came to her. I think I need to redirect my anger and resentment to the person who caused this whole mess in the first place.

I am going to go off topic here, so I apologize...
DH continuously bitches to me about how we are in debt and how we need to save and not spend. guess what... YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IS SQUANDERING ALL OUR MONEY!!! We have had SD since June and we are STILL paying that B.I.T.C.H. CS!!!! WHY you may ask?????? because DH will not get off his A$$ and send the paperwork needed to stop CS. I am so tired of his LAZYness (the spelling is on purpose)!!! I try and speak-up but I am constantly shot down with... "I WILL DO IT" to "I am SOOO busy at work, I just don't have time" I get so tire of nagging him; we argue about this shit all the time. Before it was me telling him he had to call his child (before she moved in with us), after 3.5 years of me nagging him to call her and him not doing it and getting into arguments I stopped. If he didn't want to call it wasn't not my problem, he was the bad parent, not me. I am to the point of giving up on reminding him about all stuff concerning SD and allowing him to just drown himself. I DON"T CARE!!! I need to get my own bank account and not let him take me down with him. If only I was that strong