What should I do?
For the past year, my husband has become more depressed due to a legal problem with his job. When it started last August, I told him to get another job and leave his current job. But he refused. He has the attitude of get them before they get me. It has now started to reflect on me in some ways. This past weekend on Saturday, he went to the casino near us and I didn't want to go so I went and did something else. I tried texting him and calling him twice all day. He never answered me. I know he saw my text messages and read them because my phone status said read next to my text message. I was so mad because he was disrespectful and rude to me that I locked him out of our room that night and left his pillows and pajamas on the couch for him. The next day he didn't talk to me and when he came into the room to get his laundry, I asked him where he was and he said "It doesn't F-ing matter, lock me out of my room." I asked him why he didn't answer my text messages or phone calls and he didn't say anything. I told him he deserved it and that he was rude and disrespectful to me and I didn't deserve it and that I didn't do anything to him. Well, he still isn't talking to me. This is the type of behavior I get from him. He always acts like the problems that happen in our relationship is my fault. I tell him that he needs to tell SD19 to clean up her mess or to do something and he doesn't listen to me. I am the type of person that when I get tired of something, I walk away but in this case I'm so afraid to do that. I watched him be vindictive to his wife during his divorce and I am afraid that he will do the same thing to me, even though I don't have anything for him to take. I know deep down in my heart that he will never change and that I don't deserve to be treated like this but I am afraid to do anything right now. I have thought about going and talking to a divorce lawyer but if he ever found out, it would cause a huge problem with us. I've been contemplating this thought off and on for a while but I would not have anywhere to go. I don't have friends and the two people who are family don't have room for me to stay with them. I just feel stuck and I can't get out. Has anybody been in this situation? If so what did you do? Where did you go? Thank you in advance for your advice.