O/T I Need to go to HR About my Boss, but am Really Scared
I have a psychotic boss. He has yelled at me and then when people called him on it, he gave a stupid apology and said, "well, I don't know how sensitive you are, so I'm sorry." OK, way to go saying over and over about not knowing how sensitive I am. A$$hole!
He has OCD. Not as a joke like, "oh, I'm so fussy that it's my OCD," but full blown OCD diagnosed and all. I worked with him at a previous job and we all knew he had OCD. That's fine, but if you can't recognize when you're letting it get in the way at work and dealing with people, then it's not OK. I'm tired of other people's issues and agendas negatively impacting me.
Boss will look at my work and say how good it is, but then rip it apart word for word, trap me in his office for three hours at a time while he rewrites it. I'm never allowed to leave. I have to sit there and watch the side of his head in silence while he rewrites my work. Due to his OCD and having to rewrite his own stuff over and over, an item that takes maybe 40 minutes tops will take him three hours. He'll then recite it and when he falters on a word, he doesn't just repeat that word, he starts over from the top, so he'll recite the document about five times over, which adds to the time stuck in his office. He will take quite a while to compose a two-sentence email and recite it and reword it over and over. I mean I'm all for accuracy, but come on! Why should I have to pay the price for his issues?!!!
I cannot get developed in this job. I started over 7 years ago and there was always an issue with getting work at all and when there was work, it was never at my classification level. My skills have significantly devolved and now I can't win a posting of my own level. I cannot get the hell out. Also, boss gave me a bad reference and I lost out on a job. To make matters worse, it was at the level I already am.
I'm afraid to do certain things. I responded to correspondence and boss grilled me on why I took it and didn't refer it to another program. I explained, but he still went on and on and I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't.
I have to walk the long way around the office to go to the bathrrom or leave because I'm constantly afraid of him spotting me and calling me into his office for three hours. I have had medical appointments and other things I've had to tend to and he doesn't care. He doesn't let me lave. I can't have coffee dates with people, because I have to warn them that I might not be able to show up. I'm union, so I started to submit overtime when he keeps me two to three hours after work, but he'll give me crap and he doesn't change.
I keep approaching him about getting more fulsome work to develop, but he comes up with a laundry list of my weaknesses to justify why I can't have such work, yet I'm the only one in my office who knows how to do a certain type of complicated matter and I'm stuck with those. He can't be honest and say he needs me to focus on those for now. He just says how inferior I am to the other analysts to justify why I can't have the same type of projects they get. I've tried EVERYTHING to fix any weakness and develop, but nothing has worked. This jerk promised when he started six months ago that he'd get me developed and now he's changed his tune.
I'm scared to death of going to HR, but I really want a lateral transfer. You can't unring a bell, so I don't know what to say to them without getting gaslighted or told to suck it up. I've been to HR about five years ago about the lack of work, but then they had my former Executive Director rush around to give me work to "fix" the situation. However, I wasn't being abused at the time. The fix didn't last and the lack of work and inappropriately low level of work for the positions has continued. This time the added factor is my weird boss with weird habits that affect me.
Does anyone have any HR experience? I'm really scared, but I'm starting to have physical symptoms from being in my workplace. I'm scared all the time too. I never know what my boss is going to do next. He's been stellar for a few weeks, but that's because he's been busy with his golden child (other analyst on my team). I'm wondering if I'm crazy or if I have grounds to go to HR to ask for a transfer.