Life and things that look like it, but maybe aren't.
Still alive. Yep.
I have a question, and even lengthy answers are welcome:
How does one disengage? And because I assume that means "just stop doing the crap I do for someone who sh*ts on me and my biokids and my DH and everyone in the world even within a mile radius".....how do I do it when, and I am serious here, SD WON'T LET ME?
It seems...I dunno...not "allowed". Like if I don't immediately hug her (after one of her many sh*t on Emptyrisksagain parties, she's all over me or telling me she loves me and ugh, it's all very needy and "PLEASE LOOK AT ME ALL THE TIME AND TOUCH ME AND VALIDATE ME I AM ALMOST 17 YEARS OLD BUT OMG TOUCH MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!".
OH, and this has been bugging me, too, lately:
THAT GIRL IS ALWAYS ON MY BED. WITH HER DAD. (he is always there first, she joins...BARF)
Now, he isn't asking her in and saying, "Oh please be on this bed with your skin and hair and body oils..."
But she'll go around the house looking for him...EVERY DAY...if she can't see him RIGHT AWAY, and (if it's later in the evening) he'll be in our room, reading or working on music, ETC. So she goes in...and every time that I she does this, I will walk through the laundry, past our room to my bathroom...AND THERE SHE IS! Laying on mine and DH's bed, laying there with her FUNKY FEET (and I mean the other eff-word) on my pillows, on his pillows (yes at the same time)...just sprawled out staring at him or trying to move herself closer and closer to him...asking him to play her favorite music on his guitar as SHE LAYS THERE IN MY EFFING BED?!?!?!?!
Um, excuse the shit outta me, I want to say, BUT GET YOUR SHIT OUT OF MY BED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I mean, c'mon folks! I sleep there, he sleeps there....we DO STUFF THERE, and she is almost 17. Why would she WANT to be there, knowing what "could" have happened there?! Am I being a nut? Arg.
It's late. Um, actually...early? Heh. Sorry to BUFAH all over the place. Hope all is well.