SD told DH and I her college plans......OMFG!!!
I don't even know where to start. Things went ok last night. SD of course sat with us in the living room, which ok whatever, then she decided to tell us her plans for college.
Now her plans awhile ago were to go away to college, which of course I was thrilled and told her I would help her in anyway. I actually started putting some folders together for her. This way next year she could go over the folders see what colleges we will be visiting and take it from there. This is what i did for BS21.
So she started that convertion by asking what our plans were for the weekend. So DH told her SM has girls night tonight and I have guys night in garage. Sat just hanging but going to friends at night and sunday just a lazy day. So she says she wants to clean her car sat and maybe go to the mall and a friends sat night. She will drive...OK great I am thinking. The she starts with college and says to us I have decided that I will not be going away to college. My anxiety seems to be getting better and I dont want it to get bad again so I am going to the local college and I will live here :jawdrop: So DH says OH, i thought you wanted to go away. The whole college expirence is to get out there and live on your own and become your own person. Well dad I am not that kind of person and i couldnt be away from you. I can not leave you all alone :jawdrop: So of course I chime in well he will be far from all alone, I will still be here. She says yes but you work alot of hours and anyway i dont want to leave, I have decided I will live here, go to college and by then I will be of age and we can all hang out and have drinks on the deck, laugh, party, OMG it will be so much fun :jawdrop: WTF are you talking about????? OMFG, WHAT???????? My jaw must of been open becuase BS21 said mom close your mouth in a low tone.....So DH says we will take it one day at a time you might change your mind. She says oh no not on this one dad...I am not going away to college my anxiety is to severe to be away from you. Then she got up and said i am going to my room, she smiled and left. I sat there for like half hour speachless. DH said you OK...I said ahhhhh I think so. Hes like whats wrong, you mad? No not at all mad just I thought she wanted to go away and that would be best for her to become an indivitual. DH says we will see I just cant get rid of her....
WTF...The thought that this little girl is going to be with us till shes like FORTY!!!! makes me sick!!!! I dont even know what to say. Was talking to my friend this morning and started to cry....I mean she is never going away is she?