Jumping Jack Flash Gas update
DH came home after taking off his superman cape, and we lit a fire, and snuggled close, had some wine, and...
I got really mad.
Like furious mad. DH also got mad. He swooped in to rescue Toxic Troll so he can keep her mobile, so he doesnt have to drive as much and get stuck in traffic, for his daughter....etc.
I asked him what transpired in their conversation.
He said: "I told her that CLove is not happy with me doing this, that this is disrespecting our marriage, that with all the guys she is dating she needs to not call me."
She said: "Ok, I understand, but if this happened to you I would help you out". She is dumb as dirt. Read my previous posts, if there is any doubt.
That wasnt good enough for me. I was so mad. We got into an arguement. It got ugly.
This morning, more of the same
Him: "Im just trying to be a nice guy, to earn bonus points, to keep things friendly, to keep out of court..."
Im going to have to release this one. He is aware now that further rescuing of Toxic Troll will cause major upheavals in our marriage. He has told Toxic Troll not to call him for things. He has told her I am not happy with her using him as her "husband". He has told me that it was stupid of her to do this. He has told me this am several times this one incident was simply to keep his child in transport.
I just need to breathe I guess, and work through these emotions, this anger. It was all going so beautifully too - new job, future so bright...and now I feel like everything is sh!t. Shes always THERE, in the background, like a computer virus, ready to crash my Happiness Operating System. Like a sh!t sandwhich I am forced to eat daily. These emotions about her are wrecking my otherwise awesome relationship.
He insists he loves me, he wants me, and he wants to stay maried to me. Then why do I feel like there is another woman in my marriage? Why cant I accept this?
I have a feeling that there are lot of folks who can relate.