Overwhelmed and struggling with step parenting
I am in my mid30's and have been in a relationship with my partner over a year. He has 2 young kids (3 & 5) and even though they are lovely kids for like two minutes I find it quite overwhelming and draining when they are dropped off over the weekends. My SKs throw tuntrums over everything , cry with no tears in theirs eyes , complain about the food and make yucky noises over it , are so clingy to their dad , and it's just a lot . I don't have no kids of my own but hope to have it one day but my partner complains about me being desingaging of his own kids when I have enuf with the consta cleaning , tidying up , cooking , helping and so on , I have literally turned into the help and I honestly feel like I had it. All I hear it all day is them crying about it going to mummy's house, I don't want to be here I don't like this I want to do that... it's a lot . He wants me to be 100% for his kids and I do my best but I honestly feel like it's never enough , he has high expectations and at this point I don't know if I can meet them, I am pouring into this relationship into his kids wellbeing and I feel empty while I am treated like the stagehelp.